Resistance: How bad do you want it?

For the last few weeks I've been getting on the scale in my bathroom and watching the numbers go up!  UP!  Seriously!! Are you kidding?  I've had to battle the temptation to quit exercising and chuck the half marathon goal.  But, God! 

I could not figure out why I was gaining weight when I officially committed to an exercise routine and getting back in shape.  No matter what the scale said I was determined to keep going because I was doing most of the right things.  A food journal was added to my exercise routine because I know weight loss is like 60-70 percent what you eat.  So, anyway, the scale went up again.  I looked in the mirror and told myself I could see inches coming off even if that awful box tried to discourage me.  I kept at it.  I didn't even tell my workout buddy (you should get one of these if you don't have one already!  They keep you motivated.) about the gains each week because I did not want to discourage her.  If I were to be totally honest, I would say I was a little embarassed too.

 I'm at church on Monday night and Pastor Parsely or Damon Thompson said something that brought back my fighting spirit.  One of these men of God, I really can't remember which one, said if you are encountering resistance in your life that resistance is there to see just how much you really want that thing you are being kept from.  The woman in the bible whose daughter was inflicted with evil spirits was used as the example.  Scripture reference anybody?  She did not have the right to access healing from Jesus as he told her he came to the Jew and she was a gentile.  This lady persisted in her request even when Jesus kept telling her no.  Finally, Jesus told her she was a woman of great faith and answered her request.  He healed her daughter from the evil spirits.  Then, the pastor asked us how badly do we want that thing.  That thing you know is yours but you don't possess it yet.  How badly? 

Among other things in my life, I realized my weight loss was something I knew was mine.  I've seen my slender self and I am fierce!   I mean, I can generally lose weight if I workout a couple times a week.   It seemed to me that the resistance was trying to stop me.  After that sermon it all made sense.  Some things are worth fighting for, but was I willing to fight.  Was I going to give up the next time the scale was unkind?  Would I walk away from my goals?  I determined that night not to give up on myself.  I deserve to be healthy and not overweight.

I got on the scale this morning, literally holding my breath.  I relaxed, let out one long deep breath, prepared my mind for whatever I might see and looked down.  OMG!!  Weight loss!!  I could have run at least a few good miles just off that movement down the scale!  Yeah, I want it bad enough.  I'm on my way and I'm not giving up.

What about you?  Anything just beyond your reach?  Have you lost your fight for something worth fighting for?  If so, remember the woman and her tenancity.  She was not stopping until she got what she needed from Jesus.  Don't stop!  He wants to give it to you.  I know.  It's hard. 

How bad do you want it?

Peace be with you...